Fix You.

I need this right now.
I need to put this on words.
I need this to lessen my negative vibes.
I need to express myself right now.
I need to escape from reality for a while.

Yes, I've been officially employed at my dream school... St. Paul College of Pasig (Davao Campus)
Yes, I was overwhelmed by the sudden news.
Yes, I felt productive, bless and happiness this very day.
YET...
I thought of someone, someone who would feel being left behind. Someone who will think she's not belong to the group. Someone who will think when we are gathered, she will be out of place.
That someone is my friend, one of my colleagues in college.
I've always thought of her. Since the very day we sent our resume and application letter. The day she proclaimed the disappointment she have when we went to the institution. It was hassle, hard to reach place and all.
That very day, I saw in her eyes the discouragement.
That very day, she was so transparent on what will happen for the next days if we will continue.
That very day, she lost the interest she should have as a fresh graduate.
That very day, I gave up on motivating her.
That very day, I said to myself... "I've made my part."

And now, I was on the midst of realizations...

• Left behind.
• Out of place.
• Not belong.
• Being hurt.
• Self-pity.

I don't mean to make her feel like that.... but look what's happening now?
I told my friends. Our circle of friends. And they always say... "Claire, you've made your part. We've made our part. We motivated her, she was the one who gave up."
Half of me, saying: "Don't give up. She needs someone who could understand her. You know her personality for the last 4 years, stand on her side."
The other half saying, "She gave up. She lost her interest. Just let her decide on her own."

This is going insane.
I could be insane anytime.
This feeling is insane.


Now, I'm trying to recover. I'm trying to cheer up. I'm trying to fix you.
But, I don't know how. I don't know how to approach you. I don't know how to make you feel better.
I don't want to let you feel pity about yourself. I don't want you to think you're hopeless. I don't want you to think it's over.

Remember friend, if you need to talk to me. I'm very much open. If you think I'm too busy listening to your regrets. Well, you've got it wrong. I'll make time, listening to you. I'll let you say all your frustrations. I'll listen. If you need advice, I could give anything but don't expect that I can cure it.
I care. I don't cure.

Still, I'm blessed that I've got my position on my dream institution. My first love. I feel so great being part of their team. Thank you for the abundant grace and blessings, oh Lord! I offer these all for You. I'll do my very best to be more flexible in every thing. This would be my training ground, turning point. This experience will not be easy but with your guidance and provision, I can do it all.

Caritas Christi Urget Nos

At the Beginning.

Every beginning has its ending.Every ending has its reason.Every reason that will start again on new chapter of your life.Every life that has many opportunities.Every opportunities that would change your decisions in life.

Today, I decided to give my shot at the recommended school my co-YFC told me. She told me last time, during our discovery camp, that the school her mom was working in was urgently hiring for teachers. My instant reply was "thank you for the offer". It was really a blessing. Because of what she shared, we become instant best friends. We have long, night conversations and we were next to each other before we sleep. Fortunately, we came from same school in Elementary, we were schoolmates. Yes, schoolmates.. I'm one year ahead of her. More gossips. More facts about our former school. More facts about the things she know, she's a wide reader. That's why I was amaze on her!
When I got home, I share to my mom the offer my friend told me. Then there she elaborated me the real state if I continue there. 

• too far from our subdivision
• fare is too expensive (triple or four ride from home)

Heck yeah, then there, I saw her point. 

I was so impulsive when I heard the urgent hiring, I can say.

Week after, my friend ask me if I passed my requirement to the said school. And I said my excuses but I promise to do the move. I invited my friends, Queenie and Ymari, to pass with me their requirements.

This day, we visited the recommended school. Around 10, they arrived at my mom's office. So, I told them that after lunch we will proceed to the school since they will have their lunch break too. They told me that they will also send their requirements in Jollibee near Matina Town Square, and so they did. As well as, we took our lunch there. We were talking random things. After eating, we decided to go the school. It was truly a journey. We ride a jeepney then ride a motorcycle. Imagine, we were three passenger in a motorcycle, overall we were four together with the four. IT IS A JOURNEY. It's too far from the city.

As we arrived there, we were too hesitant and nervous to pass our requirements but we need the guts to do it immediately because we contracted the driver of the motorcycle that he will fetch us as we leave the school. And so, we did.

It was a quick appointment though. We passed our requirements to someone in the finance office and she told us that she will bring it to the guidance counselor. We waited more for minutes. Nervous, sweating, murmuring words "are you sure of this?". She got out and told us to come back tomorrow for examination, it will be whole day, bring lunch. That's it. We thanked her and smiled. She smiled back.

When we get out of the office heading the gate.. we were still in daze. We can't believe what we've done. Is it even for real?

Ymari told us that she won't be coming tomorrow because it's so costly and she's not even sure of it. She don't want to tell anyone she applied because if she won't pass, no one would expect anything about her. She even stopped Queenie from taking photo of the visitor's ID pass number 026 because it will be a proof that we've applied. Yes, that's her. She is really like that. ☺

Tonight, we'll be talking about this with my parents. We'll be settling this down.

But, I will still take the examinations, I don't wanna fail my friend who offered me this job opportunity.

Actually, I feel like I'm torn between my friends. I can't let anyone down. I'll be honest. I want to try the feeling applying of job. Srsly. 

A Sky Full of Stars.

My last post was about my graduation, graduation blues and every priorities for my future.
Now, I just wanna share my conversation with my mom about job hunting.

Me: Ma, did you get tita's digits? *referring about the character reference in my resume*Mom: How about your review? I thought you'll be having your NCII (National Certificate)
Me: But I'm pressured on how you rub it in my face that I need income to sustain my extra curricular activities.
Mom: Well, yeah. You always ask for allowance.
*inside my head... that's why I need to pursue this applying thing*
Me: I also want to experience the interview process in job hunting.

In spite of the dark times, where I can't have what I want because they always stressed out on me that I'm not an income generating person. Yes, I know. You don't have to emphasize to me. Just please. Stop. 
Actually, there are a lot of opportunities shared to me these pass days. Some would recommend me to apply in this school because they are hiring elementary teachers. Private schools, to be exact. Yes, private schools are for experience to enter the DepEd culture.
I always have that plan but I am too lazy and I always procrastinate when it comes to time to do the thing. I always make reasons and excuses that I still don't have the enough information for my resume. Lame excuses, yes. Because I don't want to pressure myself in doing the things I know I can't be comfortable with. But I believe in going out your comfort shoes. Yes. I'll be putting enough effort to get what I need and want.

Fresh to Raw.

Heck yeah!
So last April 22, 2016, I just graduated from curse course taken.

CLAIRE FATIMA C. CAGOCO

USEP

BEED GEN. ED.

NOGRALES SCHOLARSHIP AWARDEE

BATCH 2016

So here... I ended my college life. I've been successfully March this April in an entourage. When you see it... then you do!

BTW, as part of graduating. You need to contemplate about life, failures and success. You have to think about your future plans, becoming more mature in your decisions in life.

FRESH graduate to RAW unemployed. You see that thing o'er there?!

Truth hurts. Well, acceptance it is.

I'm now currently experiencing the difficult stage of my life. Plans in the future. Which priorities I should do first? Service? LET Review? Job hunting? Enjoy travelling? Those choices which should be weighed carefully. I want to do this... but I can't. There are many buts. Like in my service, I want to be more active but I should still find a job to sustain the financial matters e.g. fare, registration, etc. In LET Review, I still can't decide which review center I will take.... I still can't decide which is which, will I get the prestigious one with all the most of topnotcher's review center or stay with my alma mater's learning review center... or find more review center. SRSLY?! I don't even know. Job hunting, I always have prospect schools but I still can't give my whole attention because my mom wants some high positioned friends to be put in character references. She has more plans for me. Travelling, I can't do this because I still don't have income for me to waste all those time with my loved ones. 

I think it will all come down on being an unemployed "career" woman right now.

I'm hurt on the fact that I can't get all that I want because I still don't have that money I need.

I believe that money can't buy your happiness... but let's think about it, money can buy the things you need and want. So it all boils down of having money. I want to be that income generating person as of the moment....

But, I don't want to pressure myself on doing the things I know I'm not willing to give my effort and time with. I want to enjoy what I have as of the moment. Not to the extent of having the YOLO moments, but I really want to enjoy and take some rest from those 14 years of staying at school, waking up early, late night sleeps because of home works, projects and school stuffs. I want to free myself to that stress where I've been living. Because I know what my chosen career is still related to school. Yes, learning is a lifetime process. I believe... That's why when you're a teacher, you'll be forever student, learner.

Well, I'm not closing my doors on new knowledge and skills... that's why I am trying to have my Nominal Certificates as of the moments. Training in SMAW (Steel Metal Arc Welding) yet I still want to have some cookery course or housekeeping. That would be interesting. Welding is so challenging. :) It's so cool to know that there's a professional welder woman. Say whuuut?!

So, I think I better end it here.

Love 360.

Last night, we had our Year-end Campus Party at Kadayawan Hall, NCCC Mall. We had our Holy Eucharist before we proceed to the program proper. There were production number, roll calling of campuses and "Your Face Sounds Familiar" segment for this event. Talented YFC people from different campuses showcased their talents. 

Some of the designs for the event. Congrats logistic for have a great concept after all! ☺

 The backdrop of last night's event. I could really testify the talents, skills and abilities of Youth for Christ. In every aspect they amaze me. And I'm proud that I am one of them. :)

    

   

My friends, my classmates, my YFC-USEP friends. It feels so good that we're having a bigger family now. From 3-4 up to 13 classmates being brought to the organization which honed my spiritual life. I'm proud to say that I'm one of the people who invited them to join youth camp. And look now, they're enjoying a clean party. They're living the 4F's and the 7 advocacies of being a YFC. They are one of my inspiration to be better in my service.

CTTO Catherine Cirunay & Charmaine Geraldez facebook albums

Marching Place.

Late this February we had a talk with my brother. It was brownout then. We were left at home. It was a serious conversation tho.

My brother open up his future plans as he live again here in Davao. So, I listened to him carefully.
Brother: Sister, graduate faster.
Me: Why?
Bro: Because I want to study again.
Me: *reacted violently* What? My plan in life is to study-graduate-have a job and you, you want to go to school again.
Bro: I want to study again. I want to be "palamunin". I want to have allowance again. I want to feel that again.
Me: Cut that daydreaming bro. You have a job now and you'll leave it for better. You gotta find new and stable job now.
Bro: No, I'm tired of my life. I want to hang here in the house. Nothing to do. Or just plainly a student, again.
Me: I won't agree on that. If you really want to. Then tell mom about your plans.
Bro: *being emotional* You don't know how hard it was when I was in Cavite. I ate regularly at 711 and fast food chains.It was so hard that I don't have parents there. You should know my sacrifices for you just to send you to school.
Me: I didn't even ask you to do that bro. You should know.
Bro: Why can't you give what I've given you?
Me: Stop it.... Okay, okay. I'll send you to school. I'll provide you your needs but in one condition. I will only sponsor you 1 year of schooling.
Bro: Ah! No one ever graduated within one year sis. I'll proceed engineering.
Me: Then go to TESDA. 5 years is to long. Get a life bro!
Bro: Here's the deal. You will pay my tuition fee and mom will shoulder my allowance. Or vice versa.
Me: Hey, don't include me in your delusion. Cut the drama!

I was like... Was I a burden to him? Was I a responsibility to him?I never thought about it. It never cross in my mind.I felt sorry for him. I was, that very moment.

Nostalgia.

Today, I was reminded on the things I should prioritize. The things I should give more attention than the other things. I was trying to arrange my priorities. Like:

• doing of 8 lesson plans
• doing of lacked entries for daily journal
• intervene on our CAR
• start doing portfolio matters
• think of things I should buy for Grade 1 Rose for token
• prepare myself for separation anxiety
• say goodbye to good practicum days

Those list made me realize that I'm already in the 70% of my graduation. The 30% left was all about my paper works that should be giving much attention for the moment. We will be leaving the Teodoro Palma Gil Elementary School for 3 days from now. 

Probably, I'm expecting for a "separation anxiety" feels. I will be finding those times where I will be waking up early to see those annoying, fun, little kids waiting for me. Those times where I will impart some knowledge to their minds. Those times where I engage myself to their level. Those times where I could be childish with them. Those times where I am in command because they look up to me (as a student-teacher). Those times where I will make my voice louder to get their attention. Those times where I will cuddle them when I'm bored, when I'm sleepy. Those times will be missed. Those times will always be remembered. Those times are worth treasuring.

Currently, I opened Youtube and searched Triangulo by Yumi Lacsama, Thyro Alfaro ft Jeric Medina after that was The Scientist by Coldplay and autoplay start. I miss those songs from 5 or more years today. I was listening to it now.

♫ NP: Won't Go Home Without You by Maroon 5 ♫

First post for this year.

For the past 1 month and 18 days, I've decided to update this blog again. I missed this.
I've been so busy lately. I've been busy doing school works. I've been busy wasting my time in front of the monitor, doing my lesson plans. I've been busy updating my Instagram account. I've been busy doing my daily journals. I've been busy doing my responsibility as a pre-service teacher @ Palma Gil Elementary School.
All those things, I've been doing for the past months.

Anyways, I have to update my blog. So, let me start it.

March
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November
December
January

Those months have passed. Everything had change. As I have experienced different problems within those months.
Together with sadness. Together worries. Together with doubts.
Together with solutions. Together with happiness. Together with certainty. Together with ease.
I am very much grateful that I'm guided with people around me. 

Storyboard.

This day was one of the greatest. This week was productive even though it isn't ending. So, what's more if it ends this day?

We were boggled up with the unending requirements since FINALS are fast approaching.

Who would have think that in the few weeks, were almost done with the school year.

This day, I finished our storyboard through capturing screen caps from an animation video about Pencil Story. I feel so amazing with this achievement!

Furthermore, I edited some photos and document for printing and cropping the screen caps. Well, look who's determined and had fun on what she was doing.

People around me keep on mocking that I should not make things complicated, well I like it the way it is. Yeah right! In the name of graphic design! I am ready for it!

We've made some officers for our final project in Campus Journalism which was to make a magazine as an requirement. It was fun. Hahaha, I was nominated to be in the Literary Editor and I ended up no position in all. 

I'm happy that I am one of the writer, a literary writer. Hoping to get some inspiration. And I was also overwhelmed that my suggestion in our name page for literary is Kairos, the one I suggested. Thanks for our classmates who gave me the opportunity to accept my ideas. 

Happiness for this day is overwhelming. 

Evangelization Rally

This day was a productive day.
I had fun. It was a blast.
I served at our chapel and I had knew new person today. My co-reader. I was just so sanguine and can't stop talking and approaching her that much. Hahahahaha ☺☺☺
After lunch, we attended ER (refer to title of this post) at USEP Mintal. We, hitched at Tito Lot's car for the journey to the venue. Ugh. For an hour or more we've waited there. We chitchat about Valentine's weekend and talked about the people coming for the event.
*insert latest chat post here*
We had joined the photo boot fair and donated some money. We had an impromptu performance for the program. Like, srsly?! We practiced it for more than a minute and joined the program.

During the program, we talked about elementary days. I met my batch mate again and realize that I have co-YFC who graduated from SPED also. I was not aware at all. For the almost how many months, just this afternoon we, together with my batch mate, realized that he was "famous" in school because of extra curricular activities in school. He's 2 years ahead of us. And he even thought, maybe you two are just so focus on your study back then. Blah blah blah.
After the event, I let my mom bought the photo made key chain and went back to home, still hitching at the same vehicle. Tito dropped us at the same place where we waited for the others.
6 of us was waiting for the jeep however, there was a road enhancement as of the moment. It was very traffic. One-way system. So hassle.
They discussed about things like: where to go, what to do and how much should be the budget. Lmao.
I really wanted to join them yet I don't have budget anymore that's why I decided to go home.
As I called at my dad to fetch me in highway he just told me that they have household. I was so upset and all. That's why when I arrived at the house, I decided to go out and bond with my neighbors.

Worth it day. God really make reasons why you should not give up on life.
Amen!

Crush list.

Since we have this “love month” and I have this one little thing which I really don’t want to share to the public that much…. so, let’s start.

Neighbor - He is so good looking, introvert, gentleman. The first time I encounter him, he was very choosy on the people he interact with. Now, that he is much older and mature. He is into dancing, magic tricks, music lover and a typical gamer. He used to be playing outside our house together with our other neighbors. He is a very fashioned guy now.

Elementary - He is a gentleman disciplined, simple boy I had know. He got my attention when he was my partner of being a class officer in the class. He is not the typical pupil who is so hyper and loud. He can stay in one corner and be with his friends while he was doing his own thing. Maturity was what I adore him. I didn’t have any attachments to him now. No updates at all.

I was not able to see him anywhere in web. [X]

2nd elementary crush - A graduating high school student at my 6th grade. He was very attractive. I was head over heels on him. I even made some move to know his name through his classmates. Ugh, the feels! I really can’t get enough now that I’m reminiscing things. No updates at him, too.

High school - My 3 year crush… And still counting. Hahahaha ☺
He was a mysterious, bully, achiever, one of math wizard in class and generous. Yeah, generous.. Since he gave me this Snickers when we were in HS. He was someone I still look forward when I’m staying at our favorite past time place. I know he knows that I’m crazy over him. I really don’t care. Lul!

YFC - My motivation. Every time there are big events. He is a very talented, introvert and fun guy. Yeah, I know it’s so ironic. I can see that he is introvert when it comes to not being around with his friends. But when he’s comfortable with you, he’ll probably do his thing. He even know how to mix music. Ugh! My dream. An aspiring photographer. I would really love to have a photoshoot with him. 

College - The typical concerned friend. The pa-fall type friend. The numb friend. Yet, I realized he is that kind of guy. Though we are “textmates” and “grade school batchmates” and still schoolmates. We know each other, he even notice me and greet me when I see him around the campus. One department. One university. Who could mot say that were not going to be greeting each other when we bump into each other? No choice at all.

This is my lists. My bitterness. My motivations. My strengths. My weaknesses. Through the years of my life.
I know this should be confidential yet I can say that it’s according to the month celebration.
Happy heart’s month! ❤
ヽ(*≧ω≦)ﾉ (/^▽^)/ ヽ(^。^)丿

PS: Sorry for the photos. Like srsly, these people are not that vain. Except for my neighbor's crush because he's so into modelling. See how's appealing he is? :)

Evolution of Face.

You see, I'm making myself busy in doing this stuff.

We had this UFED event at JMC and I chose not to go because I really wanna stay home and chillin' like a boss.

I don't have enough ideas how to make myself productive.

This day is very memorable | 013015

National Day of Mourning

Mom's birthday

Aunt Sermar's birthday

1st wedding anniversary of ate Ding

UFED 2015

Marielle's grandma's burial day

I need to pay my tuition fee and finish our research paper, however I chose to edit this photos and think about how pathetic is my life. You see. It's a very productive day and yet I chose not to be.

So many events and I wasted my time doing this.

I really want to do this photo to see my development through years.

From 2009-2015.

Within 7 years, I had evolved... from poses, faces, fashion statements and even angles of my face. I chose the "somewhat-best-photo" of each year. You see, I can say I'm a very creative person. Huh? Self-proclaim? Not too much, just a lot. :))

I'll look forward on my photos. I really wanna have photoshoots as many as I can. I hope I can. Life goals.

P.S: Updated on web, that's why too much artistic fonts. :)

Crush Encounters

Last, last week. Monday. I was busy with our report for Curriculum Development, first subject. I was assigned to do the written report and a topic to be discussed. I was so mervous that I was not able to do it the night before. *fast forward* After printing the written report I passed it on our teacher's office in our lobby. Unexpectedly, as I pass at the office, I looked around if its open or what. Then guess what happened? Yeah, you're right! I found him. He was busy playing tablet and I interrupted him. I greeted him and asked if the office is open and he said "YES" and I entered rushing. I left after. I fixed my hair in the CR. Yeah, my hair was so messy and tie it up. I was about to leave the building yet he was still there, looking loner. So I sat down and talked at him... Even though he was playing yet I was amazed, he paid attention to what I'm saying. We had random talks. I bully him about their relationship with his girl. Acting like normal and calm. We've talked for a couple of minutes. His girlfriend arrived that it was so awkward and I lagged yet manage to bid goodbye and smile to her. See? That's life!

Today, my ultimate crush was with me in the same ride as I went to school. He was with someone else and they were talking. He's with a she. I think she's the one who he is courting right now. I don't know really. Who am I to judge? However I saw him walking alone  at the street. I think he had done something at school, ugh! He's so charming and amazing with whatever he is wearing. Or is it just me? Being so dang attracted to that creature. Oh ghaaaaaad! Why can't I resist him?

Bottomline is.. My crushes aareoo friendly that still now we are friends. 💔💔💔💔💔

Summary of events.

That mini heart attack when you saw a photo being tagged to you and your crush liked it. Then....

So disappointing!

Before the year end... We had this little bonding with my neighbors. Some photos would be like...

 

 

We were so deym enjoyed that day where we watched Feng Shui 2 and ate KFC at SM Ecoland, riding a bus going there.

 

 
As the first Sunday was a bonding day with Bro's girl. We had a great and blessed  day. We went to churh together and had our lunch at G Mall JP Laurel.

 

We had oue first groufies as the new sem starts. Ters forever! 👭👭

Yesterday was a dream.

I'm so blessed yesterday.

This is supposed to be posted last night but I did my present for Janey!

Yesterday was a hectic yet amazing day.

A supposed to be practice for our play in the morning yet they arrived late.

We also had our birthday celebration for Jane and Marielle's birthday. I was like a call center agent calling my friends, JMLCC.

We had a conflict on our schedule yet we manage to decide to continue it that day. 😁😁😁

I spent my lunch with my friends @ Abreeza, Robinsons. As I left the school I saw a mother who brought her daughter with down syndrome that's why I called my classmate to inform them.

As I arrived at the mall, I saw my best friend that looks like a fool. 😝😝😝😝😝 TRUE FRIEND HERE!

We made fun at Jane because she didn't notice us when she entered the mall.. We talked over the phone even though she's there already.

We ate our lunch @ Greenwich. Lasagna was the menu with pizza. Yummy!

I stayed there for more minutes and I was too complacent because they didn't contact me about the practice.

As we left the mall, we just walked through out to school. See? Not even time conscoius .

As I arrived at our department I searched for them. They were at 2nd floor with down syndrome kids. They were crowded then there I realize the parents of the children were there also. 😁😁😁  #suportive

I was immediately assigned to the kid named Barbie and there I tried to make her feel comforcomfortable and she didn't respond that fast though. I reached out, she was shocked with her new partner. Hahaha 😁😁😁 

There I was totally blank on the scenes it was like the first time. I keep on asking my Kya to help me. Thanks to her I got the sitch after.

At the last part we danced together with the downers. So happy and inspired with their behavior. They were so determined to learn and hone more their talents and skills as an individual.

We weren't able to move on afterwards that easy. As we left, we keep on talking g about the experience.

Me and Janey went to Victoria Plaza. We ate snacks there. She treated me with coconut shake and strawberry shake. So generous of her.

My mom texted that the road will be traffic due to the parade hosted by the city hall. So we leftnadterwards, then at Ponciano it really was so traffic. We were stuck so the driver told us to walk so we can arrive at our destination. 

Before we left, a lady approached me and asked if it's my 20 pesos. And I refuse to, it really wasn't min . Jane suggested to keep it so I did.

We walked another meters to find jeepney while Janey was on her way school for their neo. Party. 

There was a couple or I think friends who was having a trouble on their fare and their destination is almost there. So I offered the 20 pesos I saw at the jeep I rode before. Then they thanked me with l their heart that they were ashamed in the  situation yet I didn't let them feel that way because I know they really need it. The conductor doesn't have change on their money which is 100 pesos.

It feels great to help random people who are in need. Not the street children/people but a person who is able but doesn't have abyhing at the moment. So fulfilling! 😂😂😂

Tears of joy! 😁

I wasn't able to hide my emotion on the situation I had a while ago.

Good morning!

I was wrong on my outfit this morning. I was being reprimanded by our lectorer. It's okay, part of growing up.

Stressful weeks ever!

Who says before Christmas break is a total amazing days of your life? Well not!

Who would have thought that as the Yuletide season is fast approaching days would be more stressful ever? Well, ME.

To tell you honestly... I was not able to update nowadays due to the hectic schedule I had.

I always plan to blog and udate yet I don't have time. 😭😭😭

Last week, I had 3 day Christmas party over near weekend. Starting Thursday, Friday & Saturday.

Thursday. Organizational, Despedida party for our organization ( Society of Elementary Education Students) it was a 3 in 1 event.

Friday. College-wide year-end party. It was a blast. Awesome party ever! Theme song: All I want for Christmas is You.

Saturday. Scholarship Christmas party. Nograles scholars on move. I received grocery package, Ulam King canned goods.

Following week after, we started our practice for our theater play this 28 at Abreeza, Robinson's Mall with the down syndrome children. Who would have thought that we'll be having this kind of experience for our inclusive education subject. Although it's so frustrating because of our professor's attitude and approach to us but who are we to complain ? She offered this oppprtunity and we should grab this. For grades and experience. 😀😀😀😀😀

Now, I am having an irritated eye with me due to the contageous virus my classmates acquired past week. Ugh! My first sore eye experience ever. Thank God, it isn't red. 😂😂😂

Later, we'll be having our practice with the downers. Wish us the best. It would be a challenging task. 😬😬😬

Last night, we had our recording at Sound Avenue, Ilustre for our play. We spent 3 hours there and our proffesor shouldered the expenses. Thank God! 😀😀😀 

Tomorrow would be a great day. I'll be having my reading at the chapel, yesterday I didn't had. Tssss! I didn't complete my dawn masses this year. FRUSTRATING! But let's be thankful though. 😀😀😀😀😀 

A badtrip day.

I could say that I had a not-so-good day today.
My hashtag for today.... #Badtrip
It's not about being negative on things that happened this day.
It was just so not the usual day I had 

We had our year-end celebration, Christmas party and Despedida party for Sir Damole. See? It's 3 in 1 event. 
It started with the log in. They had announced it's 7:00-7:30 yet they arrived 8:00. Yeah, that's life. Hahaha 👧 
I'm in Violet team and I was the supposed-to-be-leader.. Ubebe was the group name. Yet, when Christel arrived, she dominated. Well, I got nothing wrong with that... You know 😉

We were drained after the activity. The most challenging lart was when we had our caterpillar and we were all so lousy and we failed it. We failed the egg catching part also. Hahahahahaha 😃
We freshen up afterwards..

While waiting, we (me and Ymari) went to Eagle's office and did our errands for the preparation to the program proper. （⌒▽⌒）

It got 3-4 hours while waiting for our lunch, we were so hungry that we bought food to eat.

After the full-pack lunch, the program started... After 2 minutes, me & Ymari, left the Social Hall to buy our gifts for the Christmas Party tomorrow. CED goes Frozen. A college-wide year-end party as they've said.

We went to Abreeza, Robinsons. We searched for our prospect gifts. I started finding my gift for Mildred in Ladies' accessories and we didn't even saw the one she was preffering to. So we proceed to Artwork for a while, to buy Ymari's gift for Divina. She bought a shirt.
We came back to the Department Store and find again the item I am supposed to give. Yet, I still didn't find it. After some minutes, I found the thing she was into yet I didn't find the exact item she really want to accept. 💨

Everything was frustrating and I decided to buy a pouch in Artwork. Yet Ymari told me as I finished punching it to the cashier. She told me that I should give her cash so she can buy the item she want. She even insisted to be with me in the mall so I can buy the thing yet I refused to because I already paid on the pouch. Too bad.

I returned to school, entered Social Hall and I laughed because of the portion I reached. It was the MTV spoof part of the 1st year. 
It was an impromptu that I was one of the cast of our presentation. We were so nervous that it didn't even came into plans. Ellen was very disappointed on our performance.

Formal attire and Q & A portion in the main event, She's Handsome and He's Beautiful. It was laughtrip. 👽

The program finished with the awarding and we were not announced because of our scores. Yet, I claimed our consolation prize instead. No one of our team approached me to get the prize on me. So I gave it to random people I see. 

We visited Victoria Plaza as we left school. Together with Faith, Giselle, Charis and Queenie. I told the story of my journey this day. It was so worth to share.

We decided to go home after scanning sandals and dresses there.

While I was on my way home, Mildred PM-ed me that the item was still available. And I was so upset because she really made me to be so disappointed with myself 
So I GM-ed to TERX Ü that I won't go tomorrow bacause of it. And they had different respond to it.
Queenie, Faith and Cha  comforted me to continue the party tomorrow and not let the thing to be worried about.
While on the other hand, Ymari replied that we will not be having the "exchange gift" next year because of what happened. Wow! That was the most amazing respond ever. NOT! 👿

So I GM-ed again and I will continue to attend tomorrow and I was JUST carried away and have my hang over on our Amazing Race. Stress things. 💪

There, I realized I can't go emotional when I'll be approaching negative people.

Despite of all, still be blessed on the day He had given me. 

I'll be sleeping with a smile on my face. 👧

Badtrip? Not at all. 😉

Happy Moments.

It was a good day at all.

Yesterday, I was overwhelmed with the fact that my crucifix was lost. Even though it was a very disappointing point of the day. I still manage to thank God beyond it all.

Today, it ended great. Unexpected things turns to be the worth remembering things. Either good or bad. 👧

I was still overwhelmed on the things that happened today. 🙆

We really didn't have proper class this day. It was upsetting yet it still happened to be the best. 

We went to Chinatown at Uyanguren to buy gifts for the Christmas parties we'll be attended. Me, Queenie and Faith together. We were supposed to be with Mildred and Vannesa yet we separated ways.

On our journey, we were so noisy and loud along.

My moment was when. I was lining up to pay at the cashier. The cashier said: "Ma'am, sais?" (SIX) I was like: "Size?" Cashier: "Yes ma'am sais." Then I realized she's asking six pesos. 

Loading. 💨 

Second. Queenie. We were going out to get our baggage at the counter. While we were heading exit, a worker from the mall, whistling to get her attention to pass on the way with his strolley. We were like laughing out loud while walking. Like seriously!

Thurd. Faith's moment. We were going to pick the things to leave. The mall is going to close. As we arrived outside to claim things... The bagman told us to go inside to get our bags and we were like..... LOADING! 💢 

Then the bagger, lead us near the exit, inside the mall to get our things.. Again, we laughed out loud.

We have our LOADING moments. 🕒 

Twas the best! Maybe, we were not complete that time but we managed to have those moments to happen. Thank you Lord for the happiness you had given me today! ➕

Fast Track Events.

I'm trying not to feel it. I conclude, I should change my daily activities and make myself busy.I really don't want to feel this. AGAIN!Not again.

After the camp, last November 28-30, a two-day and two-night camp @ St. Joseph Chapel, Doña Vicente. 

It was a worth remembering experience. It was been a long time the last time I served Youth Camp. Now, with different set of people. The first one was in the community and recently at campus. 

(L-R Meya, Me, Cath, Ymari and Divina)

I have my classmates with me. With the help of Divina's convincing power, we were able to invite some of our classmate to join the said camp. It was really great to be with God together with them. I can't feel that only me and Divina are the one who is very much active in YFC. Although we have classmates that are YFC too, like Cham, Mildred, Jojie and Christel. They are busy on things and I understand, I don't have the right to judge. So we are the only person who can relate when we talk about YFC stuffs.

I was assigned as one of the Food Committee yet I really want to be DGL (Discussion Group Leader) and when the camp came I become one. I'm an assistant.

(L-R Me, JoenaMar, Cynth and Ymari)

I'm with these girls. My role was to guide our participants on the things that should be done on the camp. Following camp rules and do their personal needs on time. They are the prioritized person on the camp. 

When we had our morning activity on Sunday morning where we played some games together. While the other service team were busy preparing breakfast and liturgy needs.

This was Saturday evening, the E-night. We were getting nervous on our performance. The night where half of my dignity was lost. I was so ashamed that I could imagine they won't forget me because of my performance that night. Come what may! I'd do that for Him.

(L-R: Girls groupfie, Boys groupfie)

At the end of the camp, we had our photo shoot for the last time. In these photos, participants together with some of the service team. Wacky is wacky!

The iTouch Youth Camp 2014 participants. Proud to say that they are the newly graduated batch of campus babies. ☺

The logo of the recent youth camp of YFC-USEP. ☺

After the camp, back to normal. Deal with stresses in school. 

Monday was overwhelming, we were so excited to talk what happened during the camp. Ymari's excitement was still on. I can say that TERS were somewhat out of place. On the other hand, I had invited Faith and Charis yet they refused. Queenie's not a Catholic.

Wednesday, we had our first gathering after the camp. We had our routines. Introducing oneself, play games, do activities, have PEP talk and worship. I didn't really finish the gathering because I still had my class however I'm very happy that I reached the worship part, I was able to join and start it with them. So powerful and blessed!

We had our group picture after the worship & bid goodbyes.

Happy moments happen when you don't expect them. ☺

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